Instant Mommy

Reiko is turning 2 months this Wednesday, June 8. Look how fast time can be. I never had the luxury of time to blog or write about everything that's been happening to me since Reiko came. A day after the effectivity of my leave, I already gave birth - April 08, Friday at 11:18pm. It was earlier than expected and came out quite surprising to me. It was good enough that it happened earlier though because I really just wanna get over it quick. But of course, it was never easy. Labor pain is by far the most excruciating physical pain I've ever experienced in my existence. And I'm not exaggerating. I was in labor for freakin' 24 hours I wanna cry my heart out! Well, the bottomline is I am sooo proud of myself for having survived that pain through normal delivery. It takes a lot of courage and strength to go through it.

It was so amazing -- seeing my wonderful baby boy for the first time, hearing him cry for the first time, and being a mom for the first time. The miracle of life is surreal. Somehow, the thought of my baby experiencing the world for the first time is very heartwarming. During the first few seconds of his life, I still can't imagine that he was really there for real. But yes, there he was.

One day old Reiko

Reiko @ 1 month

The task of taking care of my baby is far harder than I ever imagined. He sleeps a lot but he cries a lot too. The first few weeks, he was up every after 3-4 hours of sleep. To add to that, breastfeeding is a pain in the butt really. I stopped after a month because he's not getting enough from me even after hours of feeding. Now, I'm already bottlefeeding which is also a pain in our pocket. There were a lot of times that I almost gave up. But then there's no way to go. I just have to make the best of what I'm doing.

Finally getting him to sleep after a whole day.

It doesn't help much that I am having this postpartum syndrome commonly referred to as Baby Blues (yes, I've read about that). I am quite paranoid. I don't wanna be far from my baby. Leaving him for a while is such a heartbreak for me. *Sigh. And on Wednesday, I'm going back to work without someone who can take care of him full time. *Cries*

I still have a long looong way to go. It's true that when you get to be a mom, even if you don't know anything, you'll be an instant mommy. This is one situation in my life that forced me to grow up -- in a nice sort of way. I am so soo happy and grateful that I have this super cute little angel with me now :)